Thursday, January 28, 2010

....Oh, I'm sorry about that...

...sorry about what, you may ask? Well, here's the thing...I am a self-proclaimed peace keeper!  However, I'm not convinced that that's necessarily a good thing.

Just recently, I had an exchange of messages with someone I consider to be a friend of mine (she knows who she is). And in those messages, I mentioned how I'd been trying to reach her and hadn't heard back from her. Long story short, I came to the conclusion that she was upset with me about something (I didn't even know what it could've been), so I "apologized" to her in the hopes of "rekindling" the friendship. She replied by saying, that I had absolutely not upset her. It was simply that she hadn't checked her messages in a while and/or she'd been busy.  That's understandable and makes since to me.

Of course I was glad to hear that.  However, I then started to question myself. "Now why do I do that?" "Why do I assume that situations (most of which are out of my control) are MY fault?"

I consider myself to be a pretty sympathetic and empathetic person.  I am also aware that I am a VERY emotional person.  It takes VERY little to make me cry or get "into" the emotion of a situation. I mean, I can be watching TV and a touching commercial comes on...and I will cry! Or at a minimum, I feel myself start to "well up".

Mister M. use to get on me about being this way. He'd often question why I was sorry or apologizing for something I had no control over. I mean, it could be something as ridiculous as me apologizing because it rained during a birthday party or something, lol. That's not MY fault!! But I FEEL sorry that it happened, know what I mean?  Other natural disasters...those are not my fault either. But I'm sorry about it. I am also an emotional person on the other side of the spectrum. I cry at weddings...I cry when a baby is born...I cry when I get flowers...and I cry when other people cry (sometimes).

There was a time, early in my marriage that if Mister M ever got upset with me about something, I'd apologize for it...whether it was my fault or not. I guess that was my way of trying to keep the peace. I do NOT like people to be upset with me. I do NOT like to make people angry. And I can NOT fight, LOL!  Maybe this is where it all stems from. I CAN'T fight! So I feel it's better to keep the peace, so to speak, so that I won't have to defend myself in a fist fight, LOL.

I dunno, this is just something I've often wondered about myself. What's really crazy is, I'm pretty sure that even though I have gotten my thoughts about this OUT in writing, I probably won't change. It's a part of my character. I wear my emotions/feelings right out there on my sleeve. I'm a very REAL person and I don't mind showing how I feel about things. As long as it doesn't upset anyone else, of course :-). What's funny is, I find that most people are caught off guard by my apologies or my emotional display. Simply because, like I said, it was out of my control. I guess I don't LOOK like I'd be an emotional person.

Yep, I'm one of those people who wants peace and equality around the world :-).  I don't think that's too much to ask!

Ok, now ya'll have read about one of my "issues". Do YOU have a little "oddity" about yourself that you'd like to share? Is there something about your "character" that you question? Do you ever wonder, "Why do I do that?" Or "Why am I that way?"  

Lie down on my "virtual" leather couch and let's discuss it...I'm listening :-).  But beware, I may cry and apologize for it....

Sorry, for rambling and dumping on ya'll. See, I did it again.... ;-D

Friday, January 15, 2010

Castle Cakes & The Liar :-)

Ok, if memory serves me correctly, on my last post, which happened to be on Christmas. I said that I was going to start posting here at LEAST once a week. WELL, Christmas was THREE weeks ago! ARGH!!! I'm such a liar & a loser!

...I have nothing to say for myself :-).  I won't use the "I'm so busy lately" excuse (although it's true).  How bout this one?..."I forgot!" lol That just doesn't even sound right.

Anyway, I have been kinda busy.  Did I tell ya'll that I'm the Historian for Jayla's school this year? What is a school historian you ask?'s the historians job to do a scrapbook of all the PTA sponsored events that are held at the school for the current school year. Once the scrapbook is completed, it will be on display in the school lobby the following school year.  That's cool!...I like to fact, I do it when I find the time. But what's so strange about me being in this position is, someone actually NOMINATED me to do it. Problem is, I can't figure out for the life of me who would do this to me! I've asked everyone that I thought would want to tick me off...but no one owns up to it. :-) SO, with that...I am the 2009-2010 school historian. Having said all that, the school scrapbook is one of the many things I've been doing lately.

Also, my doggie has had some...issues. He apparently got into something in the yard (we are assuming that's what happened anyway) and it has caused him to itch like nobody's business! Poor thing turned all red and couldn't walk 10 steps without dropping to the floor to scratch. I called the vet to find out what I should do for him. Get this, they told me to give him a Benadryl!  Well, ole boy doesn't like little pink pills!  So I waited until Mister M. took his 3 week vacation.  You may remember, Trae is a big ole doggie, and I just can't handle him at the vet by myself.  We get the boy to the vet and he about chokes himself to death trying to "visit" the staff. (almost) nothing worse than hearing a dog hacking...for NOTHING really.

The vet comes in and immediately sees the redness on Trae's underbelly and now in his ears. He gives Trae a "quick" Cortizone shot in the hip, and I tell you...the itching stopped almost immediately!  We are then told that Trae "simply" has a yeast infection.


He's a BOY! And those are his EARS!

How weird!  Yep, he's got a yeast infection and it's actually pretty common in dogs. I've NEVER heard of that before, have you?  Well, that explains why his whole head has been so funky lately :-).

Ok so now I'm thinking, "What does one (vet) give a MALE dog for a YEAST infection?" I hope it's nothing crazy cuz I'm not really looking forward to having to squirt some Monistat in my dogs ears! My MALE dog at that! I'm just sayin...

Anyway, we leave the vets office with 3 prescriptions, a bottle of ear wash, a reminder card to come back in 2 weeks and a BIG OLE FAT bill for...wait for it...$596!!!

...ya know, it sure takes the paramedics a long time to bring smelling salt to a vets office :-).

Ok, after I pick myself up from the floor and apply for a small loan, we're headed home. And I just loved it when the receptionist says to me, "Well Mrs. Bibbs, look at it this least you don't have to buy him a car or pay his college tuition!" And that's supposed to make me look on the bright side? Anyway, we love our doggie. Four weeks later, the yeast infection is gone (no more smelly head), no more under belly redness and not as much scratching.

Fast forwarding to today, guess what I made today? A friend of mine whose daughter plays on Jayla's soccer team, is having her 9th birthday tomorrow. And she asked me to make the birthday cake. Check it out...

Cute, huh?

I'm a little nervous though. It was a little more difficult than I thought it would be. So I hope that doesn't show too much in the finished product. But I'll let you know how Kennedy liked her princess castle cake. Her favorite color is purple. So when she cuts into the cake, there will be purple icing between the layers :-).

Well, that's about all I have for today. Oh, how bout a Friday Flower Fix? Hmmm, let's see if I remember how to post pictures of flowers, lol.

Enjoy your weekend, my friends. See ya soon...I hope! ;)