Saturday, April 12, 2008

Tribute to Mama G.

Hello everyone.

It is with great, great sorrow that I do this post today. The inevitible has happened. My mom contacted us this morning and informed us that Mama G. passed away last night around 9pm.

My heart is SO heavy right now. However, I'm finding it very difficult to grieve at this moment. Probably because I KNOW that Mama G. lived a VERY full and happy life. I am thanking God right now, that her death was not tragic, untimely or unexpected. We are all, just so thankful, that she lived on this earth with us THIS long. As I mentioned in my previous post, she was 4 months shy of her 104th birthday. Wow, can you imagine living that long?

Fortunately, she and I were VERY close and I have nothing but fond and happy memories of her. I know no other way to say this, but to come right out with it...I was just as special to Mama G. I'm not sure why she and her late husband, Pop, took such a liking to me :-). But they did. And their love for me was VERY real, VERY apparent and VERY special.

I'm sure that the grieving will begin soon. But who's to say that it hasn't already? This may be how I'm dealing with it for now. Maybe I would be handling this differently had she passed away while I was there this past week. Or had I been able to see her more know, as part of a "routine". But I am, so happy, that I got to see her before she passed away. And that she KNOWS I was there.

Here's the most recent picture I have of me and Mama G. Isn't she the sweetest thing? :-)

"Mama G., I love you SO much!!! And although we haven't been able to see eachother as much as we would've liked, you've ALWAYS been so special to me. I know you're in a better place now and you're thrilled, beyond belief, to be back with Pop and Cliff. I will miss you and I look forward to seeing you again some day. I love you!"


Cheryl Wray said...

Oh Dawn, I happened to pop in here, hoping that you had posted from your return trip. I see that you did in the post below this one (haven't read it yet), but just had to comment here.

I am so sorry to hear of Mama G's passing, but as you say sometimes it's hard to grieve when you lost someone who lived such a long, full life and who you had such a special, regret-less relationship with. In that sort of situation, I think it may be natural not to grieve...but to celebrate instead.

That picture of you, Jayla, and Mama G is truly precious and am sure will be so treasured for the rest of your life.

Know that I'm thinking of you during this time, but not so much because you are sad...but because I'm sharing in my heart those wonderful memories you have of your dear Mama G.

(btw, my great grandmother lived just one month shy of her 104th birthday and knowing her for so many years is one thing I will always treasure! We just keep having things in common, don't we?)


Colleen said...

oh dawn, i am so very sorry for your loss. even though she lived a very full and lovely life, that doesn't make her loss any less sad. i will keep you and your family in my thoughts and prayers and please let me know if you need anything


Leah said...

So sorry for your loss.
What a wonderful picture of the three of you! And I'm so glad you have such great memories to always remember her by.

DJ said...

So sorry to read about your grandmother's passing. Your family has been blessed with her long full life and I believe you have been blessed to have known her,loved her,received love from her, and have pictures of her for future generations! Totally awesome. Remember Kubler-Ross and On Death and Dying. (the five stages) You might experience this in some form.
Claim your blessings,

Babydoll said...

Dawn, I'm so sorry for your loss. What a blessing to have had her in your life for so long. May you find comfort in God's words during this time.

Jude said...

So sorry for your loss Dawn, but what a loving tribute to someone so special. I am glad you got that picture with you and JAyla and her, so that you can tell her about her as she grows up... praying for you!

Lynilu said...

I'm sorry, Dawn. I am happy that you had so many years to love, to learn, to enjoy her company.

As for grief ... it is different with each of us as with each loss we face. With my mom's Alzheimer's I think I was "prepared" to a degree as it was long known that it was coming. Did I grieve? Yes, but different than others. I still do, but it is with bittersweet, because of all she was and all she gave to me. Perhaps you'll have an experience something more like that with the lovely Mama G.

What a wonderful picture. She looks like a truly grand lady. How wonderful to have had her in your life and to have her memory forever more!

Hugs, Dawn. :')

gold said...

Sorry to hear about your Mama G.Wow a 104 years old that is a blessing.
I am glad you did have special times with her.

blessedme said...

Oh, sweetie, I'm sorry to hear about Mama G's passing on. My heart goes out to you, but what a lovely tribute that you have shared with us.

Patti said...

Oh Dawn may she soar with the Angels! You were so blessed to have her in your life!

Susie Q said...

I just happened to pop in today, to see if you were back, and saw this.
I am so, so sorry Dawn. Yes, you will miss her but her life will be celebrated too. She loved a very long and full life. And she was well loved. That is the most important gift we can give and be given.
We all grieve differently so whatever you feel, however long or short, is what is best for you. I send warm hugs and, although this is a sad time, hold in your heart the happy memories which you have in rich abundance.

Love to you all,

denaid said...

I'm so sorry for your family's loss. *hugs*

Gretchen said...

So sorry to hear of your loss, Dawn. No matter how old our family members are, nor how great a life, they are still missed. I'm sure she's dancing and praising with Jesus, though. That's a great picture of the 3 of you.

Sending hugs from Seattle. xxxooogretchen

Adrienne said...

Oh Dawn! So sorry for your loss!!!!

Thomisia said...

I'm so sorry to hear of your lost. What a blessing for her too live to nearly 104! I'll be thinking of you and your loved ones.

Kimberly said...

OH, I am so sorry that u lost such a great lady in your life. That is a great picture. I lost my Granny last November and it hasn't been the same without her. But like you said we will have our memories of them. You are in my thoughts and prayers.

Brown English Muffin said...

OMG how cute is she with those bows in her hair...and how cute is J??? Was she maybe 3 years old then?

LuvJones said...

Girl you know she is smiling down on you right now....

Veroncia said...

Hey Sweets! I have finally found time time to come and read my fav blogs and I see this on yours. I'm so sorry about Mama G. I just want to tell you that when you are grounded and centered in a deep spiritual place, and you know that your loved one was too, the grieving process is very different. The sadness is there. But so is the joy in knowing that they are home with the Father. That's good news! And to live such a full and wonderful life too.

I love that picture of you and J with her. I would give anything for my great-granny to have seen Ava and hold Ava just one time.